Friends

I've always had a hard time maintaining close friendships with girls. And maintaining friendships with guys (which is WAY less complicated than girls) is not a good idea being that I'm happily married. 

I'm a loyal person. I think much of that stems from being a rule-follower by nature. And I guess what comes along with that are expectations. I expect certain things from people I'm close to, and have always assumed they expect similar things from me. But something that happened caused me to reconsider who some of my friends are, why they're my friends, and why I was allowing them to control my emotions. 

I realized that I was allowing a few people (who I thought were friends and clearly are not) to make me jealous. Not jealous of material things, but of their friendship. I don't know if that even makes sense to anyone but me. After talking to another wise friend about the situation, she told me of a wise person in her life who once shared with her that some friends are only meant to be for a season. We may never know why they're not an integral part of our lives anymore, or it may become very clear eventually. Either way, not all friendships are long-term, and that's ok. Wow. What a thought. I can "release" them as friends, and not try desperately to hang on to commonalities that are just not there. I still need to love them as sisters in Christ, but it's ok for me to not keep up with their everyday life.

So, I've hidden a few folks from my Facebook newsfeed. And it's made me a happier person. Which I know says a lot more about me than it does about anyone else, but I'm ok with that. Pretty sure it doesn't say in the Bible "Thou shalt be Facebook friends with everyone you know." :)